It's been a minute, hasn't it? I think in my last entry, I was complaining about looking for a jobby job. Well, I found one and I don't have to deal with that anymore. At least for now...
What a truly humbling experience this whole thing has been. I now have a new respect for people who dedicate their lives to retail, bartending, and 2nd and 3rd shifts. It's hard work dealing with the public day in and day out. After a while, I know I became increasingly bitter towards humanity... still am kinda. I'm sorry, am I not ringing you up fast enough?? Did I not put enough booze in your drink? What do you mean I only get a 20 minute break during an 8 hour shift? That's illiegal isn't it?
Bad transition...
Going to Metro tonight for the first time since the Jesus Lizard NYE 2010. To be honest, I'm that big into going to shows anymore. There was a time when I'd see between 4 and 6 a week. These days, I'm over it... too many people, too many singers being Divas and hitting the stage whenever the hell they want. Tonight is different though...
I love anything Greg Dulli does and will continue to support all of his endeavors. Except another cover of a Fleetwood Mac song. Sorry dude... I've got to cross the line somewhere.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Looking for a new job...
is grueling, not fun, and even worse than moving, in my opinion.
I think I know what's been getting me down lately, and for once and it's not the constant pressure (self-inflicted) of wanting a boyfriend. That'll happen when it's supposed to.
A friend told me yesterday that I'm in control of my life. I knew this all along, but sometimes it's nice to hear it. Being 33 and working retail at a store with no upward mobility, shitty hours, and no benefits has been killing my spirit. I was fine for a little while when I was offered a small raise to come back after that whole JP Morgan debacle, but now it's a chore... a chore to drive there, a chore to be "on" at all times.
Stability is eluding me and I've made it a point these past couple of days to do something about it. Fuck a boyfriend... I need to better myself career wise and actually do something about it instead of losing sleep over it.
I believe once I find a new job, I'll be 100%. Which means more money, and the ability to move out of my brother's house.
I think I know what's been getting me down lately, and for once and it's not the constant pressure (self-inflicted) of wanting a boyfriend. That'll happen when it's supposed to.
A friend told me yesterday that I'm in control of my life. I knew this all along, but sometimes it's nice to hear it. Being 33 and working retail at a store with no upward mobility, shitty hours, and no benefits has been killing my spirit. I was fine for a little while when I was offered a small raise to come back after that whole JP Morgan debacle, but now it's a chore... a chore to drive there, a chore to be "on" at all times.
Stability is eluding me and I've made it a point these past couple of days to do something about it. Fuck a boyfriend... I need to better myself career wise and actually do something about it instead of losing sleep over it.
I believe once I find a new job, I'll be 100%. Which means more money, and the ability to move out of my brother's house.
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